Just Pray.

My count did not change at all this week.  We don't really know anything because this is not what my Oncologist had prepared us for.  I have called back and the nurse is going to consult with the Dr because she also has no clue what is going on.  

Today's appointment with the Oncologist was to prepare us for the next 6 months and that was hard enough.  We had thought when we got to zero, we were going to be able to put this behind us, but today we were told we have six more months to journey down this road.  That six months period begins when I reach zero, which we were anticipating today but did not happen.  

Today was tough.  I had many of the same emotions today as when I was first struggling with this reality.  But-- God is still God and He is still in control.  I have to trust that because currently my ability to feel in control of anything is not there.  I am weary of chemo and most definitely ready to be through.  I am ready to feel healthy and energetic 7 days a week.  I am ready to be able to say I am cancer free.  I am ready for closure in this chapter of my life.  

Please continue to pray.  I appreciate your pleas to the Lord on my behalf more than you will ever know.  It is comforting to know I have friends to pray when I dont have the words to pray myself.  Thanks.